My first manga review... Mission-chan no Daibouken. Or Mission-chan's Great Adventure. ミッションちゃんの大冒険
A summary: Girl commits suicide. Girl ends up somewhere, so she commits suicide again. Girl commits suicide again. Girl lives the rest of her "life" working a full-time fever dreamish job against her will.
I've reread it 3 times because each time it feels like a whole new different kind of fever dream. But from a regular non-suicide-loving-person standpoint, it's one of those series that's kind of incoherent and (visibly) messy and tries to be deep but isn't clear to anyone but the author. Regularly I'd say it's something that tries too hard to be edgy and philosophical and fails because all it does is just torture the protagonist (failed suicide, miserable sobbing crying mess, harassed even in the afterlife, there is no peace) and eventually say some crap like "In the end... I need to live..." But I think you can still tell this work was just meant to be a personal act of self-expression, not made to appeal to or be understood by others. It's incoherency is part of its reason for existence.
I don't actually care that much, its not that deep for me. I just read it because the art is cute I fr do not think about it that much. The style is fitting for a story that makes you remember the last time you ended up in the hospital from a failed overdose.
Suicide!! Let's go!!
She tries to find a way to feel better and accept that she can't die the way she wants to. It doesn't work, but oh well. That's just how it is. You can't die. Find something to do.
Drawing, photography, self-expression, it all stops working after a while again. Nothing works. In a few months, I'll quit this site and stop updating except for maybe a couple manga reviews every now and then.